Chorus: Jake Hill
Im not suicidal, I dont wanna fucking die
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)

Verse 1: Josh A
Why do I even try?
Why do I even write lyrics about how Im living the life when Im battling pain and my demons at night
Trying to find a new outlet
The devil pouncin
I hear him howlin, my vision cloudin
Man I tried to escape but there aint no way
Try to be strong when I deal with the pain (yuh)
But Im ditching the coffin, so my family has options
Gotta work till Im dead
So that they get the best
Dont wanna set up a bad example cause the kids looking up
Cant leave in shambles cant make them think clocking outs ok
So fuck suicide Im here to stay

Bridge: Josh A
Try to free my mind
I dont know whats right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
Try to free my mind
I dont know whats right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light (Nah, man)
Ill be out here runnin, Ill be runnin from myself now
Gunnin demons down find my way out of this hell now
Ill be runnin now, Ill be runnin from myself now
Gunnin demons down, find my way out of this hell now


Chorus: Jake Hill
Im not suicidal, I dont wanna fucking die
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)

Verse 2: Jake Hill
One too many bad thoughts inside me
Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me
Im pressed with time, Im stressed with life, my breath is ice
I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always
Barely standing, crawling down the hallways
Sink into my bed, with death inside my head
(Yeah) That note you found I didnt mean it
Just wish I had a better sense of meaning
Never meant to let you down
Ive been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out (Fuck)
Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god
I dont believe in just to see if I will never wake up
But he called my bluff

Bridge: Josh A
Try to free my mind
I dont know whats right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
Try to free my mind
I dont know whats right
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
(nah, man)
Ill be out here runnin, Ill be runnin from myself now
Gunnin demons down find my way out of this hell now
Ill be runnin now, Ill be runnin from myself now
Gunnin demons down, find my way out of this hell now

Chorus: Jake Hill
Im not suicidal, I dont wanna fucking die
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)

Outro: Jake Hill
Im not suicidal, I dont wanna fucking die
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
But every day I feel like dying
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)