I start this off staring at a blank page
An open office document
A blinking cursor
Passing days
Without a single word
Some say its absurd
Like I float along a stream of words unsaid
Choosing not to cast my net
But I spend so long questioning myself
If this isnt right
Then does that mean I failed?
Will my melodies ever live up
Will my metaphors be profound enough
Will I ever outdo myself
The ceiling gets higher and higher
Its harder and harder to shatter
And when I fall
I fall worse than I ever did before
Evaluating the damage no I just dont understand it
Conflicted my the very air I breathe
A love with hatred laced between
You can see it in my eyes
A childs spark light up the night
Constant search for approval, suffocated by refusal
Devouring my skull but never feeling full
Oh, dear I dont wanna be a burden
But could you please be a little more concerned with
The overactive mind of a believer
The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
Oh, dear if only you could feel it
The crippling fear of being deserted
You cant touch the heat of this fever
The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
I start this off a little confused
Writers block doesnt exist
Its not a word Im supposed to use
Because its all in my mind
A parasite Im supposed to find
But sometimes
Well most times
Its so hard to define
So I pour a couple drinks
Getting drunk on gasoline
Fire pulses in my veins
Im sick of waiting for the day
That courage overtakes my brain
For someone to say its okay
Ive lived my whole life afraid
Its time for me to be brave
To embrace a forest
Thats so dark and unknown
Because no great adventurer has a paved path to roam
They pave as they go
Disappointed faces leaving poisoned bread crumb traces
Im not taking the bait
Let them rot in their place
I deserve to be alright
I deserve to sleep at night
Im my closest friend, I remind myself again
Better treat her well, cause shes with me till the end
Oh, dear I dont wanna be a burden
But could you please be a little more concerned with
The overactive mind of a believer
The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
Oh, dear if only you could feel it
The crippling fear of being deserted
You cant touch the heat of this fever
The toxic thoughts of an overachiever
Sometimes I forget the feeling
Of every single nerve tingling
Better than any lovers touch
Ive created tears of pain and burns of lust
Ive created a forest a safe place for myself
That others have found
Some attempt to destroy and others feed the ground
Fertilize my mind with melodies and rhymes
A sorcerer of time, take you back to the night
When you pondered your death when somebody left
When you lie away broken cause your head is unkept
And let me remind you
That everything is temporary
You and I are temporary
And this feeling thats so scary
Someday youll realize that thoughts so heavy
Dont mean youre unsteady
But that youre only getting ready to say nice to meet you
To somebody you never knew
You