My friends always tell me I get carried away
Sometimes I spit when I talk cause I have so much to say
They dont seem to hear me, but I guess its okay
Its not their fault my mind is working overtime with no pay
They always say the same thing and its starting to get old
That my mind cant get sick, that it cant catch a cold
I scratch and I pick, my insecurities poke,
My fears, my anxiety, a voice that provokes
Take a walk, clear your head, breath in, count to ten
Cause on the first page of life written in red
Youll never make it here if you dont learn how to bend
Dont speak unless youre spoken to, little girl
Someday you will find your place in the world
But ladies dont get dirty
Someday youll learn to fill the empty space with empty faith
Everyday feels like a battle and I always get hurt
I was frequently told violence was never the answer
But life doesnt abide by the rules of a child
I dont know how to fight, only taught how to surrender
There is a certain kind of darkness that does the reaping
It usually take you right before you are sleeping
Is it the crack in the door that it finds a way to creep in
Or the crack in your brain that want you to drop dead
I dont remember what its like to see with clear vision
I awake every morning like the dead has arisen
I dont have to think this body of mine is a prison
You dont control me, I just got to find my lightsswitch
But the more that I look, the further it gets
Your the only thing about me that needs to be fixed
Cause on the first page of life written in fine print
Stop looking for light, live it instead
Dont speak unless youre spoken to, little girl
Someday you will find your place in the world
But ladies dont get dirty
Someday youll learn to fill the empty space with empty faith
My mind is a mess, but I love it nonetheless
They told me to hush, but my words are all thats left
So on the last page of life written in gold
Dont waste it always doing what youre told